New year, new me?

I'm a bit late to the party, but welcome to 2015! This was going to be a positive post about new beginnings, but after some contemplation actually it's a bit darker than I planned. Well, life can't always be rainbows and butterflies can it?!

2014 was a mixed one for me. I started my nurse training again. This led to all kinds of anxieties and excitement. I have made some fab new friends and I think we are a tight little group. But I have struggled with juggling a degree, the placements and being a mummy. It's hard feeling like I'm missing out on stuff with my children, however, I have waited 10 years to go back and do this, and it has been 2 years in the planning, so I knew what to expect. My Hubbs is amazingly supportive and has never once grumbled about the long shifts, my endless amounts of homework or revision, or the fact that I have seriously neglected him and the kids to follow my dream. My long term friends have been amazing, knowing what this means to me, and appreciating that they can't be my priority for the next few years. 

So back to the present. Do I want a new me for 2015? Nope. Im happy with the old me. The me that works hard to get good grades. The me that my children adore just because my title is Mummy. The me that my husband married, flaws and all. The me that my true friends love, despite the fact that I'm not available much anymore.

My New Years resolution is to focus on me. I will no longer attempt to please everyone, everyone can please themselves!  No more putting anyone else's needs above mine and those of my family. 2015 is MY year. Anyone who wants to be in my life can earn the right to be there!

Oh, and on a lighter note, I knitted a hat to start my new year knitting :-)